About tensions

[20/11 00:06] SS: Universe is so big
[20/11 00:06] SS: Dantlo oka galaxy undi
[20/11 00:06] SS: Its name is milky way galaxy
[20/11 00:07] SS: Dantlo oka solar system undi whose head is Sun
[20/11 00:07] SS: And family lo 9 planets
[20/11 00:08] SS: Andulo okati planet (Pluto) family badalu barinchaleka
[20/11 00:08] SS: Ekkadko velpoindi
[20/11 00:09] SS: Aa migilna nine planets lo there's an interesting planet called Earth
[20/11 00:09] SS: Daanni inka zoom in chesthe
[20/11 00:10] SS: Chala water and konchem land undi
[20/11 00:10] SS: Aa unna konchem land lo 7 continents unnai
[20/11 00:11] SS: And dantlo we'll zoom in to the largest continent - Asia
[20/11 00:11] SS: And dantlo oka vintha fairness-obsessed country undi
[20/11 00:13] SS: Name is India
[20/11 00:15] SS: It is known for brown people but akkada manshulaki mathram white ga kanipinchalani pichi
Endo mari veellake theliyali

And ee country lo white ga unte manchollu and trustworthy people
And brown or dark brown color skin unte not intelligent and not trustworthy ani blind ga namme chetha manshulu unde country
[20/11 00:15] SS: Ilanti oka interesting country ni inka zoom chesthe
[20/11 00:16] SS: Telangana ane oka state
[20/11 00:16] SS: Inka zoom chesthe Hyderabad ane oka city
[20/11 00:16] SS: Inka zoom chesthe Ameerpet ani oka area
[20/11 00:17] SS: Inka zoom chesthe akkada oka illu
And aa intlo nuvu
[20/11 00:17] SS: And nee tensions
[20/11 00:18] SS: Intha zoom chesthe zoom chesthe kani kanapadani nee intiki and niku
Aa thokkalo tensions avsrama
[20/11 00:19] SS: Veeti annintitho compare chesthe
Nee area entha, nee illu entha, Nuvventha and nee tensions entha
[20/11 00:20] SS: 0.0000000000000000001% of that or even even even more lesser than that
[20/11 00:20] SS: Just go on with life
[20/11 00:21] SS: Edaithe adi aithadi
[20/11 00:21] SS: Just don't sit idle
[20/11 00:21] SS: Do smthng
[20/11 00:22] SS: And ninnu gurthinchali ante inthala zoom chese avsram lekunde chusko
[20/11 00:23] SS: Get yourself an identity on a bigger scale so that further zooming is not required to find you out

How do I control my feelings?

[19/11 22:50] SS: 6th 7th 8th 9th class lo unnappudu em avthadi ante
[19/11 22:51] SS: People can notice that a girl reads well and secures top ranks in the class
Where as boys chadavaru
Chillar gallu thayaravtharu
[19/11 22:53] SS: Class lo teachers n parents prathisari boys ni Adige maata

Aa pilla baane chaduvthundi kada meeke m aindi marks thakkuvosthunai ani
[19/11 22:56] SS: Monna deep thinking chesthu veeti gurinche aalochisthunde
[19/11 23:01] SS: Like*
[19/11 23:02] SS: Aa classes lo ne manam
[19/11 23:03] SS: Kids nundi adolescents ga transform aithuntam
[19/11 23:03] SS: There by happens so many changes in our hormones
[19/11 23:04] SS: Girls gurinchi pakkaku pedthe
[19/11 23:04] SS: Boys ki aa age lo ne
[19/11 23:04] SS: Somehow
[19/11 23:07] SS: They somehow get introduced to a different world
That world consists of love, girls, sex, porn, ilantivi anni

Ela introduce avthayo evar valla introduce avtharo kuda thelikunda aipotham

And appati varku chusna world different ga kanipinchadam start avthadi

Chinnapatinundi thanathone aadukunna Ade girl vere la ga kanipisthadi

He understands the actual diff between a girl and a boy
[19/11 23:08] SS: Oka mind lo intha stuff run avthunte
[19/11 23:08] SS: Papam how a boy could focus on studies
[19/11 23:08] SS: Naa mind ante peddadi kabatti I could focus on this and that
Ala gadichipoindi
[19/11 23:09] SS: Andari ala kadu
[19/11 23:09] SS: Cope up cheskunna vallu
[19/11 23:09] SS: And aa vishayala gurinchi thelvani vallu thappa
[19/11 23:09] SS: Migitha boys andaru
[19/11 23:09] SS: Aagam aa age lo
[19/11 23:10] SS: Mana parents scl generation lo there was no internet to make kids gets introduced to all that non sense
[19/11 23:10] SS: TV
[19/11 23:11] SS: Movies
Ilantivi anni chala
[19/11 23:11] SS: Baguntunde appatlo
[19/11 23:11] SS: Ee generation movies manaki theliyani mana culture lo leni liplocks ni introduce chesthunai
[19/11 23:13] SS: Weak mindset boys ee sex, girls, porn, etc lantivi annintini bore kotti or mind strong cheskoni odilese time ki

Alcohol, drugs, cigarettes introduce avthai vaadiki
[19/11 23:13] SS: And malli
[19/11 23:13] SS: Alaage oka stage of life realise ayye varku
[19/11 23:13] SS: Anthe inka
[19/11 23:14] SS: And inka girls vishayaniki osthe
[19/11 23:14] SS: There's a fact that boys kanna girls hormones a strong ani
[19/11 23:17] SS: Okavela veellaki aa paina cheppina vishyalu telisthe inka ruin aipotharu aa Scl age lo ne

And avanni vishayalu theliyavu kabatti
Normal ga valla scl books chaduvukuntu potharu

Alantivi untai ani thelikunda pergutharu

Ranks anni vallake
Lucky girls
[19/11 23:21] SS: And certain age ki girls ki kuda thelusthai but aa age ki oche sariki max boys aa vishayalu anni pakkaku pettesi untaru
Boys already aa feelings ochina lite le kotha em kadu ane stage ki ochestham
[19/11 23:22] SS: And Ade age lo girls ki pelli chesestharu simply
[19/11 23:22] SS: 😂
[19/11 23:24] SS: 7th class appadu start aina feelings ochi ochi madhyalo maku bore kottesnai

We don't find it much interesting now
Appatilaga antha excite avvam alantivi chusinasare
[19/11 23:25] SS: Wonder woman movie lo
[19/11 23:25] SS: There will be an island with only girls
[19/11 23:25] SS: Dantlo princess chala strong
[19/11 23:25] SS: Like a superman
[19/11 23:26] SS: Sudden ga edo portal nundi oka army vadu battle nundi aa island lo ki padipothadi
[19/11 23:26] SS: And stun avthadu
[19/11 23:27] SS: Arey oka island motham beautiful women ani
[19/11 23:27] SS: But aa women mathram casual ga ne respond avtharu
[19/11 23:28] SS: Princess ki mathram excitement untadi
Aa world ela untadi ani
Akkada wars ela avthai, technology ela undi ani
[19/11 23:29] SS: Okay nen velthunna, natho raavochu meeru if you are okay antadu
[19/11 23:29] SS: Aa princess valla mom tho godavapadi Mari velthadi
[19/11 23:29] SS: Aa poradu full kush
[19/11 23:30] SS: Intha beautiful princess natho boat osthadi
May be she is in love with me
Mem iddarame untam journey lo ala ala ani
[19/11 23:31] SS: Daari madhyalo vaadu thanatho matladtuntadu
[19/11 23:31] SS: Love meeda mee opinion ani adgithe
Yeah I love my mom and people in my kingdom
Ani antadi
[19/11 23:33] SS: Em ankokandi, Will ask you 1 question
How were you born?(like andaru women a unnaru kada ani vaadi doubt)

She replies - I was born in a pot
[19/11 23:38] SS: Oka Matti kunda lo puttina ani chepthadi
[19/11 23:38] SS: Ee pilla ni straight ga adgali question ani
"Okay, meeku sex gurinchi telsa" ani adguthadu
[19/11 23:39] SS: She says - yeah I know, I have read in the books ani antadi
[19/11 23:39] SS: Vaadu weird face padthadu
Enti ee ammai intha casual ga respond aindi ani
[19/11 23:39] SS: She senses that expression and says
[19/11 23:40] SS: Yeah I have read that you people raise babies from that and more often you do that in action of making love
[19/11 23:40] SS: And
[19/11 23:40] SS: Where as
[19/11 23:41] SS: It is nthng but *pleasures of flesh* ani antadi
[19/11 23:42] SS: Evar raasaro telidu ee dialogue but
Fan aipoina asal

Just aa flesh nundi oche pleasure kosam intha aagam aagam aipotham asal ani
[19/11 23:43] SS: Ee age ochesarki
Nen realise ayyi petkunna oka statement *pleasures of flesh*
[19/11 23:44] SS: Antha flesh
Edo lo lips o cheeks o breast part wat where that is
[19/11 23:44] SS: Flesh a kada
[19/11 23:45] SS: Daanni mutkunte pleasure osthadi ani mind lo oka statement raskodam
[19/11 23:45] SS: Valla
[19/11 23:45] SS: ila apoinru janalu
[19/11 23:45] SS: Where as all that could be seen in this way also
[19/11 23:46] SS: This is how I control those odd feelings

Confession

Confession😔

Meethone enduk chepdam ankunna ante I felt you are my true well wisher and a good frnd

BTech aipogane Edo oka job cheyakunda GATE kachithanga rayali eesari elagaina ankoni sahasam chesi job thoughts pakkaku petti kurchunna

But ankunna daanikante idi chala kastam ani daarilo artham aindi
Intlo undi day time lo chaduvu meeda Focus cheyadam, evaro evaro intiki vasthu pothu unna dedicated ga undatam, ilantivi chinnavatiga anipisthai kani asal chala pedda obstacles

July lo start chesthe ippativarku chala months waste chesanu

Thappu chesanu

Sorry
Really sorry

I now understand what are all those that I have been struggling with

Naa chethulaara aagam cheskuntunna naa life ni asal

I promise you that pichi pichi panulu thoughts anni manesi sure ga I will read from this night only😔

Kachithanga chaduvutha

Day time lo focus cheyadam rakapothe nights a chaduvutha
Emaina kaani
Edaithe adi avthadi

I will win before I die

Unrealistic and unhealthy wishes about needing much money

Thickshake cafe lo milkshakes untai ani teliyadam valla
Adi chala tasty ga untadi ani teliyadam valla
Adi taste cheyali anipinchadam valla
Manam velli 170rs spend chesi ostham
And aa tasting lifestyle kosam money Kavali kabatti ekkuva salary Kavali ankoni ekkuva aarata padtham
Infact that's unhealthy ani telisi kuda
170rs ki normal world lo chala food konochu

Okavela
Asal manaki aa shakes gurinche telidu
Avi asal exist avthai ani teliyanappudu
We don't wish to have that
And we don't need to spend that much money
Then
We don't need to earn that much
We don't need to eat unhealthy

Personal ideas

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A work ela cheyalo
A diet follow avvalo
Capital ki loan application process ela untado
Election lo win avvali ante a strategy and plan cheyalo
Oka kotha product ni market lo ki manchiga launch cheyalo
Profit improvement ki strategies plans ento

Etc etc etc


Any type of work
Any type of problem
Any type of competition

Ela deal cheyali
Ela cheyali
Ela solution attain cheyali

The company provides right plan and strategy








2) Real estate digitalizing

Ela aithe paytm, phone pe lanti companies *gold* ni digitalize chesi *digital gold* laga oka trend start chesi money ni shares n mutual funds lo mathrame online  invest cheyagalam ani ankune vallaki ilanti oka new investment chesayo

In the same way
How about digitalizing land..!!

Currency, gold, shares etc lanti physical things ni digitalize and online chesi payment ni simple chesaru
Entha simple chesaru ante mana deggara even 100rs unna we can purchase that valued gold (0.001grams or whatever) or can invest in mutual funds
And price increase ayyaka u can sell that back retaining profit

Time for making the real estate digitalized

Can be started with buying a small plot and making it into very very small parts
Let people know
Let them buy (even for 100rs they must get their piece of land) online
When the land price gets increased with demand let them buy more or sell (similar to shares)
Then we issue that piece of land (digitalized) to another buyer(investor)


The start up makes money by commission for every transaction and self buying some land retraining ( since we know how the demand is)


Job application solutions
online govt and private job application solutions. maintaining job seeker database

My Tough Memories

Naa gurinchi cheptha 1st

[04/09 00:00] SS: Naku ippativarku 2 times open heart surgery aindi which is treated as one of the complicated surgeries

1st one - When I was a toddler
Puttina prathi okkaru puttina konni hours ki heart ni normal cheskuntaru by themselves (like manam womb lo unnappudu heart connections vere untai and puttina tharwatha baby adapt avthadi normal ki)
I was too lazy I dint adapt

So
When I was around 4 years, surgery chesi normal chesaru
[04/09 00:00] SS: And
[04/09 00:02] SS: Naa pre primary and nursery maa mom a teach chesindi
Andari kids kante ekkada venakapadipothanu ani
[04/09 00:02] SS: And
[04/09 00:03] SS: Then every thing was as usual for me
[04/09 00:04] SS: Okaroju around 12years age appudu andari laage nen kuda aadukuntunna
[04/09 00:04] SS: Roju laage run chesthunna
[04/09 00:04] SS: Sudden ga out of breath aipoindi
[04/09 00:05] SS: I don't knw what it was
[04/09 00:05] SS: I thought I was too much tired of running
[04/09 00:05] SS: Entha kurchoni rest thiskunna normal avvatle
[04/09 00:06] SS: Frnds andar rey pakka galli lo anta thondarga raa ani vellopoyaru
[04/09 00:06] SS: I was unable to Stand due to my breathlessness
[04/09 00:07] SS: Surroundings motham Konchem dark ga kanipisthundi as if it was 7pm
[04/09 00:07] SS: Em cheyalo artham kaale
[04/09 00:07] SS: It was my 1st time ala kavadam
[04/09 00:08] SS: Charging aipoina robot laga road pakkana walls ni patkuntu maa gully varku ochina
[04/09 00:08] SS: Eyes inka blur and dark a kanipisthunde
[04/09 00:09] SS: Voice motham double and loud ga vinipisthundi
[04/09 00:09] SS: Pakkinti mundu road meedane alaage padipoina
[04/09 00:09] SS: Still realise ayyi ventane malli lechi
[04/09 00:09] SS: Elagaina intiki vellali ani
[04/09 00:10] SS: Maa inti door varku vellina
[04/09 00:10] SS: Appudu maadi penkutillu
Road deggara varandah door undedi
[04/09 00:11] SS: Aa door lopali nundi gollam petti undi
[04/09 00:12] SS: Lopale door deggare andaru unnaru
Voice vinipisthundi
[04/09 00:12] SS: Still
[04/09 00:12] SS: I was not able to call them
[04/09 00:12] SS: I was completely fainted
[04/09 00:12] SS: Door ni kottentha energy ledu
[04/09 00:13] SS: Okkasari unna energy motham use chesi gattiga mommy ani arichi door ni kotti padipoya (fainted completely)
[04/09 00:13] SS: Andaru emaindi emaindi lopalki theeskelli padkobettaru
[04/09 00:14] SS: Everybody was crying
[04/09 00:14] SS: Because nobody knows wat happened
[04/09 00:15] SS: Oka 15 mins alaage padkoni breathing normal ayyaka I was back again
[04/09 00:15] SS: It was like getting tired and resting
[04/09 00:15] SS: Mom bayapadi inti deggara clinic ki theeskellaru
[04/09 00:16] SS: Breathless avvadam ante ento kuda telidu, em cheppaledu em aindi ante
[04/09 00:17] SS: Doctor dummy ankunta
Babu ki glucose thakkuvaindi
Ee vitamin tablets and ee balam tonic vaadandi ani cheppi pampichesaru
[04/09 00:17] SS: I also took it lite
[04/09 00:18] SS: Okasari dad valla close relatives marriage undi, dad had to take care of some things in marriage

Marriage Kurnool lo
[04/09 00:18] SS: Andaram vellinam
[04/09 00:18] SS: Pellina around 9pm ki
[04/09 00:19] SS: Pelli*
[04/09 00:19] SS: Kids andaram kalisi out out lanti games aadthunnam
[04/09 00:19] SS: function hall lo ne
[04/09 00:20] SS: Since I was a kid, I had been a good sprinter
Could run very fast than other kids in my locality
None could beat me
[04/09 00:20] SS: So
[04/09 00:20] SS: Aa pelli lo kuda
[04/09 00:21] SS: Inka out avoddu ani sandals pakkana pettesi
Started running
[04/09 00:21] SS: Function hall lo two rounds vese sariki
Again I was out of breath

Adenti appudeppudo aindi ila malli ippudenti ankunna
[04/09 00:22] SS: ismart kabatti artham aindi
Acha konchem sepu rest theeskunte battery recharge avthadi ani
[04/09 00:22] SS: Velli chairs pakkana padipoina
[04/09 00:23] SS: Thaagi padipoinattu😂
[04/09 00:24] SS: Mom ochi lepindi

Chusthe pelli aipoindi
Pelliki ochina guests vellipoyaru
Chairs theesesthunnaru

Night avvadam valla aa rest gap lo nidra pattesindi
[04/09 00:24] SS: Last time doctor ala anesariki eesari nen evarki cheppaledu
[04/09 00:25] SS: Aa breathlessness and resting lifestyle habituate aipoindi naku
[04/09 00:25] SS: Eppudaina ala aithe I used to feel like
Ufff battery aipoindi... Recharge cheskovali😂
[04/09 00:26] SS: Mellaga adi frequent issue aipoindi
[04/09 00:26] SS: Run chesthe battery aipothadi ani
[04/09 00:26] SS: Baaga alavataipoindi
[04/09 00:27] SS: Nen aa prblm ki immune aipoya
[04/09 00:27] SS: I still used to run a lot
Fight a lot
[04/09 00:27] SS: Ala ala ala
I was in 10th class
[04/09 00:28] SS: I still remember Sunny and Nenu running race petkune vallam eppudaina mrng meeru ravadam late aina roju
[04/09 00:28] SS: Sunny and I used to reach the finish line at same rime
[04/09 00:28] SS: Adi fracture aina roju
[04/09 00:30] SS: Uppal lo telsina kepal clinic lo aa pink band aid kattinchukunna
He said it was just a small hairline fracture
Kadalakunda alaage pedthe Ade heal avthadi ani
[04/09 00:30] SS: Still my mom wanted the X ray to be tested by an MBBS
[04/09 00:30] SS: So koheda lo ESI dispensary ki vellinam
[04/09 00:31] SS: He was the X Ray
He said the same
But he said never trust kepal people bla bla bla
[04/09 00:32] SS: Normal ga ragane ela aithe doctors stethoscope tho heart beat check chestharo
[04/09 00:32] SS: He did that with me too
[04/09 00:32] SS: He noticed it strange
[04/09 00:33] SS: He referred to a next level ESI hospital
[04/09 00:34] SS: Akkada cardiologist heart beat check chesi symptoms adigi okay okay ani maatho em cheppakunda
She referred to next higher level hospital since there is no availability of equipment
[04/09 00:35] SS: Sanath Nagar ESI ki velli akkada cardiologist ni kalisthe, they did 2D Echo
They didn't find any thing in that
[04/09 00:35] SS: They said CT Scan should be done to check detailedly
[04/09 00:36] SS: And for that I need to get admitted
[04/09 00:36] SS: Chi chi chi
[04/09 00:36] SS: Story cut
[04/09 00:37] SS: December month idi jargindi
[04/09 00:37] SS: Memory loss kada
[04/09 00:37] SS: Marchipoya
[04/09 00:37] SS: Fewer ochindi ani koheda ESI ki velthe idi jargindi
[04/09 00:38] SS: And next day
CT scan chesaru
Oka pedda machina lopalki pampichi euuuu

It happened
[04/09 00:39] SS: Next day discharged
And em aindi result ani adgithe
Two days tharwatha ochi report theeskoni doctor ni kaluvu annaru
[04/09 00:39] SS: Appatike naa classes anni miss avthunnai school lo
[04/09 00:40] SS: So dad ni report thiskomani cheppi nen school ki ochesna
[04/09 00:40] SS: Thanks to Balraj
Naa kosam classes topics postpone chesthu ochadu
Nen ochina tharwatha start cheddam ani
[04/09 00:40] SS: Balraj sir*
[04/09 00:41] SS: Report ochina tharwatha doctor kalvamani mom chepthe I said I'm frustrated abt their delayed treatment
[04/09 00:41] SS: Natho kadu thirgadam ani
[04/09 00:41] SS: Lite tiskunna
[04/09 00:42] SS: I thought I was only na
What's wrong
[04/09 00:42] SS: Was fine only na*
[04/09 00:43] SS: Ala ala ala hand fractured okaroju

ESI doc ni kalisthe he reminded abt that day
Em aindi ani

Classes miss avthunnai ani report gurinchi pattinchukoledu ani cheppina
[04/09 00:44] SS: Mom and naa meeda negligence gurinchi arisi inka mee ishtam ani pampinchesaru
[04/09 00:44] SS: Whatever
[04/09 00:44] SS: Ani
[04/09 00:44] SS: U knw wat
[04/09 00:44] SS: He said
[04/09 00:45] SS: One year pothe em aithadi ani
[04/09 00:45] SS: Naku chala kopam ochindi
[04/09 00:46] SS: Inka school continued
Then SSC board
Then diploma
[04/09 00:46] SS: Diploma final year lo Cadsys ane company lo 6 month internship program lo unna
[04/09 00:47] SS: Internship last 2-3 weeks undi annapudu food sarigga thinaka bayata food thini sick aina
[04/09 00:47] SS: Full fever and dysentery
[04/09 00:47] SS: Still
[04/09 00:48] SS: I was not going to hospital
[04/09 00:48] SS: Inka naa valla kadu ane stage lo ambulance lo Nacharam ESI ki patkopoinaru
[04/09 00:49] SS: With my internship ESI card
[04/09 00:49] SS: Admitted for a week

I don't knw 3 days lo thaggipoyaka kuda pampinchale vallu
[04/09 00:50] SS: 5th day discharge raasthadu ane time ki aa general doctor stethoscope tho ochadu
[04/09 00:50] SS: Strange expression pettindu beats vinagaane
[04/09 00:51] SS: Murmurs osthunnai ani
[04/09 00:51] SS: Pakkana inko Doctor ochi nijangana ani aayana kuda vini yeah annadu
[04/09 00:52] SS: Appudu anipinchindi acha veellaki murmurs valla prathi Doctor chinnapatnundi strange expression pedthunnara ani
[04/09 00:52] SS: Then he said
[04/09 00:53] SS: Mana hospital lo chala delay chestharu so pakkana oka diagnostic center ki velli 2D echo theeyichi okasari theeskoni randi ani
[04/09 00:53] SS: Okay ani velli theeskoni ochinam
[04/09 00:54] SS: Next day report Chusi okay konchem prblm anipisthundi I am referring you to ESI Sanath Nagar annadu
[04/09 00:54] SS: God
[04/09 00:54] SS: Akkadki already vellina
[04/09 00:55] SS: I knw how delaying those people are ani
[04/09 00:55] SS: Yeah sir ani discharge sign cheyinchi ochesa
[04/09 00:56] SS: 12 years appatnundi running or activities chesthe breathlessness alavatu aipoindi
[04/09 00:57] SS: So aa doctor cheppindi odilesa
[04/09 00:57] SS: Then BTech
[04/09 00:57] SS: Konchem deep thinking ekkuvaindi
[04/09 00:57] SS: Aa reports chusi I started investigating my self
[04/09 00:58] SS: Asal issue enti ani
[04/09 00:58] SS: Konni months baaga research chesthe
[04/09 00:59] SS: I understood that Tricuspid valve undalsina place lo I have a bicuspid valve
And it gets narrowed with age
[04/09 00:59] SS: Daani valla heart ekkuva pump cheyalsi untadi
[04/09 00:59] SS: Daanni valla ekkuva oxygen kavali
[04/09 01:00] SS: Daani valla nen normal kante ekkuva breathing theeskovali
[04/09 01:00] SS: Daani valla run chesinappudu oxygen saripoka breathlessness avthundi
[04/09 01:00] SS: Not just running
[04/09 01:00] SS: Any physical activity
[04/09 01:01] SS: I thought I should overcome that to stage where I should not stressed at all
[04/09 01:01] SS: I started working out
[04/09 01:01] SS: Muscles build chesina
[04/09 01:01] SS: Thakkuva breath tho ekkuva work chese laga train aina
[04/09 01:01] SS: But still
[04/09 01:02] SS: Age tho baatu increase ayye issue kada
[04/09 01:02] SS: Deenni solve cheyalante replacing the damaged valve okkate option ani telsukunna
[04/09 01:03] SS: Okkadne unnapudu edche vadni
[04/09 01:03] SS: Naake enduku ila ani
[04/09 01:03] SS: Aa surgery lo em chestharu asalu ani telsukunna
[04/09 01:04] SS: Aa surgery lo chest ni open chesi heart ni aapesi
Valve ni cut chesi theesesi artificial valve ni petti malli shock ichi heart ni restart chestharu ani thelskunna
[04/09 01:05] SS: Chala bhayam vesedi
Appudappudu dreams lo kuda ochedi aa scene
[04/09 01:05] SS: I was in BTech 3rd year
[04/09 01:05] SS: February ankunta
[04/09 01:07] SS: Maa clg ki approx 1 km Mundu autos aapestharu
From there we should walk to clg

Shortcut aithe stones, mud, hill type untadi

So mem Ade route lo velthunde
[04/09 01:07] SS: I used to feel breathlessness for that also
[04/09 01:08] SS: Andari kante nen fit maa class lo
Still
Edo fat kid ki ochinattu dammu ochedi
[04/09 01:09] SS: Feb lo cough ochindi
Chala ekkuvaindi
Entha ante classes disturb avthai ani clg ki vellakpothunde
[04/09 01:10] SS: Kavya akka ki kuda alaage aithe Yashoda secbad lo oka doc ki chuincharu ani akkadki vellinam nen and mom
[04/09 01:11] SS: After certain tests he said cough is due to common bacterial infection
1 week tabs use chesthe set ani annadu

Again
Doc used stethoscope on me to listen to heart and lungs
[04/09 01:11] SS: As usual
[04/09 01:12] SS: He felt my murmurs
[04/09 01:12] SS: He said
Okkasari 2D Echo cheyinchukoni randi ani
[04/09 01:12] SS: I did
[04/09 01:13] SS: Velli reports chuinchina
[04/09 01:13] SS: He said that he's feeling something's abnormal
And he referred me to a cardiologist in same hospital
[04/09 01:14] SS: Oka 2 hrs wait chesthe aa doc Kalisaru
[04/09 01:16] SS: He saw the reports and said the thing which I knw

"Valve ki prblm undi... It needs to be replaced... Urgent em ledu... But ultimately replace aithe cheyali... Safe ga unnappude cheyinchukunte easy ga aipothadi"

He advised that
[04/09 01:17] SS: I knew that He's gonna tell that
[04/09 01:17] SS: But
[04/09 01:17] SS: Aayana cheppagane confirm aindi ani baada
[04/09 01:17] SS: Mom ki 2 years nundi naa theory chepthune unna
[04/09 01:17] SS: Doc ala cheppesarki
[04/09 01:18] SS: Mom sad aipoindi
[04/09 01:18] SS: I was like
Aayana kothaga emaina cheppinda... Roju nen cheppede cheppindu kada...
Urgent me kadu kada
[04/09 01:18] SS: Ani
[04/09 01:19] SS: But naa baada naadi
[04/09 01:19] SS: I was crying on the way
[04/09 01:19] SS: I knw the risks of the surgery
[04/09 01:20] SS: Heart ni surgery tharwatha restart chesinappudu sometimes it won't start
[04/09 01:20] SS: I knw that
[04/09 01:20] SS: Aalochisthe kaani pani ani
[04/09 01:22] SS: Oka manchi cardiologist ni kalisi second opinion thiskundam ani I was looking for that
[04/09 01:22] SS: Childhood Frnd okadiki chepthe
[04/09 01:23] SS: He and I along with his Frnd went to his frnd's uncle who's a doctor
[04/09 01:23] SS: That uncle adviced me to consult Doctor at Usha Mullapudi hsptl
[04/09 01:24] SS: Akkada ayanni kalisthe he also said the same thing
[04/09 01:24] SS: I was thinking abt the money
[04/09 01:24] SS: And I was upset
[04/09 01:25] SS: 3rd year exams aipoina tharwatha I said this to Tarun and Harish

They knw abt my issue but
Surgery cheyinchali ani telidu
[04/09 01:25] SS: Eventually Sowmya ki kuda telsindi
[04/09 01:26] SS: She asked me to come to her home and have a discussion with his dad abt this
[04/09 01:26] SS: Uncle ki cheppina idi idi ani
[04/09 01:27] SS: He suggested me an hsptl
[04/09 01:27] SS: Ivanni mom tho cheppaledu
[04/09 01:27] SS: Tarun and nen poinam
[04/09 01:28] SS: Talked to the surgeon
[04/09 01:28] SS: Aayana okasari check chesi yeah
Cheddam annadu
[04/09 01:29] SS: Tarun and I had a discussion like career aagam kavodhu ante ilantivi clg days and summer lo ne petkovali ani
[04/09 01:29] SS: Surgeon asked me to bring elders
[04/09 01:29] SS: Mom ki cheppina
[04/09 01:29] SS: I dint want her to say to anyone but
[04/09 01:30] SS: Mamayya vallaki
Peddamma vallaki thelsindi
[04/09 01:30] SS: Admission roju mamayya and Tarun tho velli admit aina
[04/09 01:31] SS: Next day kada next day surgery
[04/09 01:31] SS: Hsptl lo anni ready chesthunnaru
[04/09 01:31] SS: Asal bayam lekunde naku
[04/09 01:31] SS: But
[04/09 01:31] SS: Shailu
[04/09 01:32] SS: Operation theatre lo ki velthunte stretcher meeda
[04/09 01:32] SS: Mom face chusi
[04/09 01:32] SS: A cried a lot
[04/09 01:32] SS: Appativarku unna dairyam motham poindi
[04/09 01:33] SS: When
[04/09 01:33] SS: Asst surgeon said my Mom that ee surgery lo risk untadi enduk ante heart ni aapeyalsi untadi ala ala anu
[04/09 01:33] SS: Ani*
[04/09 01:33] SS: Okkasariga
[04/09 01:34] SS: Life motham eyes Mundu flash aindi
[04/09 01:35] SS: Mom oka kiss ichi edusthundi
[04/09 01:35] SS: Nannu theeskellaru
[04/09 01:35] SS: Operation aipoindi
[04/09 01:36] SS: Next 2 days ICU lo
Ventilator was taking breath behalf of me
[04/09 01:36] SS: I was connected to all the machines
[04/09 01:36] SS: Bang bang
[04/09 01:37] SS: Tharwatha general ward lo oka 3 days unna
[04/09 01:38] SS: Surgery roju Harish Tarun that childhood frnds mamayyalu and mom akkade unnaru anta
[04/09 01:38] SS: Tarun and mamayya frnds donated blood too😔
[04/09 01:39] SS: Got discharged
Recovery ki 15 to 30 days padthadi annaru
[04/09 01:40] SS: Appudappudu Tarun and Harish ochi navvisthu, film chusthu muchatlatho time pass cheyinche varu
[04/09 01:40] SS: Naa life lo intha aindi ante nake nammabuddi kavatledu
[04/09 01:41] SS: Out of 4 heart valves Now I am living with one being an artificial one
[04/09 01:42] SS: Adi tick tick ani sounds chesthu untadi
[04/09 01:42] SS: Baitaki vinipisthadi
[04/09 01:42] SS: Now also
[04/09 01:43] SS: It tells me every sec that dude u r alive
[04/09 01:43] SS: I am living a second life Shailaja garu
[04/09 01:45] SS: With this problem, I'm not eligible to do a govt job for which I studied (mechanical engineer) though I am capable of doing

Bloody Indian rules

I will be treated as unfit even if I get All India 1st rank😔
[04/09 01:46] SS: And I have to take medicines for anti Coagulation
[04/09 01:46] SS: Life long
[04/09 01:46] SS: Because of having an artificial valve
[04/09 01:48] SS: Intha petkoni
[04/09 01:49] SS: Oka ammai ni naa life lo ki ela theeskoni ravali
[04/09 01:49] SS: I'm not worthy to get a girl who has so many dreams for his husband
[04/09 01:51] SS: Aina idantha telsi a parent valla daughter ni naku ichi cheyadaniki munduku radu
[04/09 01:51] SS: Okavela ochina
[04/09 01:51] SS: I not a deserving guy
[04/09 01:52] SS: Anduke
[04/09 01:52] SS: Eppatnundo chepthunna
[04/09 01:53] SS: I would adopt a girl
And try to be a good dad
[04/09 01:54] SS: I should have
no regrets
No sad endings
No guilty

Signature day

Today is 29th April, 2019

My classmates have planned for so called signature day.

What happens on a signature day is people get signatures of their mates. And the recent trend for this is wearing a T-shirt with all their classmates pics printed on the front and the individual's name on back.

I was not at all excited about this and for a while felt not to go even. But all this happened by my friend "A" and her encouragement and explanation about the speciality of signature day. People not just sign on the T-shirt but they write a sentence or two about us.

I went to my class, picked up my Tee and wore it. I started writing and signing and classmates did the same. As moments pass on, the excitement grew exponentially. That was so joyous. I felt like happiness could be in any form.

People wrote different lines about me and I did the same. We had many pics, selfies and groupies. As expected, my classmates did many stunts and all those made memoires obviously. Got home in the evening with carrying so much to rewind and play. Spared some time to have a glance what my classmates wrote about me and that was super cool. I pity on those who missed this amazing day thinking for a time waste.